well, i got 2 teeth pulled (one was a wisdom tooth, so i suppose my entries here will be a little less intelligent from now on) 3 cavities filled and Im feeling pretty decent. They gave me some tylenol 3 ( other pain meds make me itchy)  I let the kid stay home from school today, she has eye dr appt today at 2, and I didnt think Id feel like driving across town to pick her up from school.

I blackmailed her and said if she wants to stay home with me all day she had to help me out and clean house and dont even THINK about asking for a repeat day off anytime soon!!

I found out my info for short term disability, so I can get the ball rolling on not being completely broke while Im laid up after the big surgery...Ive also got to follow up with Duke and see WHEN theyre gonna pull my first appt off..I keep worrying that all this time that teeny tiny piece of cancer thats still in me is growing at exponential rates, fueled by all the chocolate i eat...

I went to the appointment with the Oncologist today-Not much more to say other than Im supposed to take Tamoxifen for 5 years (note to self: check on side effects vs long term benefits) Radiation although he wouldnt give me a timeframe for how long Ill have to go-He did say that I would have to go five days a week for awhile. The big negative on this is that no one does radiation locally-so I have to drive a minimum of an hour away, five days a week.
While I completely intended not to change my regular daily life-this now seems to be an impossible aspiration.  Becoming overwhelmed seems to be looming over me - I think I have 4 appointments over the next 2 weeks, not including rads treatments.  I also had to sign a release upon receiving my tamoxifen perscription that said something about how some insurances only cover up to $350 - and if they dont cover it, the scrip costs around THREE THOUSAND DOLLARS.
I'm sure Tricare covers it, at least in part- I have to make a phone call tomorrow to the tricare pharmacy and see if they carry it on base...if so then I don't have to worry about cost at all...which would be nice.
I have committed to Google Calendar to help me keep track of work schedule, doctors appointments as well as reminders to do things that need to be done within a certain frame-not to mention extra curricular activities for the rest of us.
I guess what I'm wanting right now is a couple of days to take a breather-to do nothing other than lay around and relax-no appointments no work..that would be...refreshing..